Dream... Dream, Dream, Dream!

I've been wanting to write about this for while now but basically i didn't have enough time.. and although now i seem very busy with exams and projects and all, i really don't know how is it gonna be about a month from now. And no, this is not another piece about graduating and leaving and missing friends , of course all this crossed my mind and is true but it's not what i mean.
Surprisingly this thought didn't hit me except a month ago or so, not the thought of graduation of course, it's the thought of possibilities. when i thought about it before it always had this positive, hopeful vibe to it, like i can do what ever! But now it seems a little bit complicated, what is this "whatever" that i'm gonna do. which one will i choose ? why will i choose it? Will it make me happy? will i be successful doing this " whatever " i chose !? it really seems very complicated right now, confusing as well. I've always had those dreams, they were like three dreams, and now finishing college there is one other possibility i can choose. When i was young i thought those dreams will go away, that they were just part of growing up but they didn't! I mean everybody had dreams, like they wanted to be a singer or a painter or a journalist. and when you finish your studies and that you're just free to pursue any dream of those. What makes it complicated is that how do you know what will make you happy the most? which of those you will excel in?
i always believed if you like what you do you'll excel in it! but which of my dreams do I like most! and if i answered that question a bigger complication is there, which is if i actually did that will i still like it? if you wanted to be a painter for example, Yes maybe you like to paint but will paint for the rest of your life, will you take whatever painting throws at you, will you just paint for the sake of painting, have you made a pro and con list and Accepted the cons ???
then comes the next argument, if you wanted to be a singer for example, well may be you like singing, but that does not mean you can really sing, does it?! and if you think you can really sing, are you competent enough? To stand out from all the others you have to be different and in a good i assume. You have to have something special! Do you have it ?

All those questions are just the, attacking me. They are even growing to be more bigger and more complicated. There always will be the very normal option which every body thinks about even i did when i chose this college. Applying what i've studied and working in what's supposedly to be my field. Of course this path also is subjected to all those questions.
I always liked possibilities, options. who doesn't? every thing we want in life we want it with more options and the more the better of course. And i've always knew what i wanted even with option , i knew exactly what options i wanted and which i didn't, or can do without . Now options just add a complication, adding more mystery and another insecurity to life. I don't hate those options yet :D I just want to make up mind and want an honest opinion.
I already made some decisions in my life already and i hope they are right! i just hope it wasn't just the safest escape :D
Well with all that said, i think it's not the first time i make a decision about my life, it's that options right now are many and they are kind of more important than before. Well again these might be the first Big and important decisions that will decide my life, but i think they will not be the last, even if i took any of those paths, there is no book to says what to do and where the road goes. so there will always be those decisions that i have to make but still i can not think of as many decisions and i don't think they will be for as many roads but there will always be a decision to make! We just hope the final decision is the right for us, it doesn't have to be right or wrong, it just have to be right for us, to make us happy and wanting to continue the journey, wherever the road goes, with all the obstacles and downs, and be ready for more and more decisions to make :D