Lonely w alone w kol 7aga!!

Never felt I needeed someone, always felt I can do it alone,
But as I grew up I felt that I can't so it alone, or as paulo coelo said, all the universe conspires to make me feel that I can't do it, or maybe that’s the truth I should have realized years ago. I never needed a brother more than now and what makes matters worse that I have a deep feeling that this is not gonna be the only time. I'm always gonna feel alone abandoned and behind. Behind and there's no way for me for catching up. I just can't move on or forward . And who's that who's gonna be that knight in shining armor even if he's my brother, what's he gonna do when all the ppl who are responsible and suppised to love me and take care of me just simply don't. what I don't get it why????
I never asked why I always thought it's over, or it's gonna be over soon. But actually it never is. everything is just harder than before, everything gets worse and worse.
Why does he do that?
Why am I do alone?
Why can't I find any help?
It's like a desert with the feeling of war.. Waiting for it but not knowing where is it or who is fighting or what I'm gonna do, just waiting.
Is it soo difficult I just need somebody to tell me don't worry it's gonna be ok it's gonna be alright, I don't need him to stand up for me I just want him to be there beside me holding me before I fall. Is that too much to ask.. Too much to want! Is it me who's building the wall or is it them who are standing so far from me!! NOBODY can make me feel small or helpless, I'm not small and I'm not helpless, I am not helpless. I can do what ever I want. I don't know what should I feel or what should I do, I don't even have anybody to help or tell me what to do! How to react and how to stand for me!! So hard to feel that everything is being cruel to you and you just can't do anything about it!!

ana magnoona??

A poem that really inspired and touched me. I read it at a time when i really felt it coz everything around me was going crazy, and what i was feeling was even crazier, actually crazier than ever!! So i dedicate it to the person who gave me all those crazy thoughts and drove me that crazy.. Enjoooooooooy.

أنا مجنونه؟

بقي أنا مجنونه؟.........وأنا كلي عذوبه !

أيه يعني لما ألبس هندي
واركب علي ظهر الفيل البمبي
وأجري وأروح علي غاندي..!

أبقي مجنونه؟

أيه يعني لما أحلم بالقصر
وفرسان كتير مليه مصر
وملك شاعر في عينيه النصر

أبقي مجنونه؟

ايه يعني لما أحلم بالغابه
والأسد الحامي يبص لي ويتغابه
وغزاله جميله تبربش لي بعيون رحاله
والنمر يبحلق ويسمي ويقول فتاكه
وطيور الحب تغني وتنده لك ألحقها...غرقانه

أبقي مجنونه؟

ايه يعني لما أحلم بالكوخ
والرجل الأخضر.. في عيونه أدوخ
ورسايل حبك توصلني ..طاخ..طوخ
وساعتهاأرقص وأغني وأنا كلي رضوخ

أبقي مجنونه؟

ايه يعني لما أحلم بالجّنه
وأتوه في الحلم وأتحنّه
أنا راجعه مهما أتعنّي
أفرش حضنك ألقي الجنّه..!

أبقي مجنونه؟

ده أنا مفتونه
أنا دايما بحلم بجنون..وجنوني ده بقي كله فنون

لسه شايفني مجنونه؟


Written by: Somaya soliman (9\11\06)