Everything is almost tasteless without that person, that person whom you wake every morning hoping to see and talk to. You might not know that person quiet well, but still that doesn't make a difference at all, you still miss them like crazy, you still wake up every morning wishing to see them and have a little chit chat, you still see your life as colorful as new cartoon movie compared to your old tom and Jerry cartoon movie, you feel it's cartoon but missing it's colors. You just don't remember how your life were before them, all you remember is the colors they gave to your life, this fantasy world where everything is just settled by just having this little chitchat. Even if you don’t get to talk to them you just think that if you do, everything will be alright again.
I've been missing those colors for a while now, and although I'm not letting myself feel empty or feel alone I actually do, and that's what I hate most about loneliness, actually I don't mind being alone it's feeling lonely when there are tons of ppl around that really gets to me. I can’t believe that I've been going out every day and just getting very tired at the end of the day to the extent I just would lie on any chair and sleep, and still I manage to find the time to miss those colors of my life, I still manage to see my black and white life needing any ray of light to give it the shadow of any color, but it just couldn't, I don't know what this shadow could be, it could be anything, it could be a letter, an email, a message, a nudge on my msn, or even just a ring on my mobile accidentally or intentionally or whatever! I can't believe one can sound that desperate when they need some colors to their life.
And what's also interesting is that previously I thought those colors can be filled by characters, characters who know what it takes to be impressive, and colorful, but actually they don't. they contribute to give your life a little bit of illustrations and details, but they don't give color. I mean yesterday I met a friend and he's one of the ppl I really feel comfortable coz they give you that assurance everything is ok, I'm here, and therefore by default you don't have to worry and they just don't say it they act it which intensifies the effect to ten time almost, I'm not talking here about if you really can stop worrying or not, but it's just the feeling of being taken care of. These are the details they add to your life they add quality, they add a sense of security, a sense of care you lacked a long time ago; but yet, they can't fill the emptiness of those little colors which you desperately need to enjoy you cartoon movie, i.e. you're life..
I just want my crayons back, or better yet, you have the crayons, then plz come back and give me some colors!!
